Gods beauty is such a gift as I ponder and watch the sun hit the ocean you can almost hear a hissing sound as a reward for watching it set. These are my passion with my gift of photography I was blessed to be given by my awesome savior Jesus Christ. He gives freely to those who will accept his gift as I have found true unconditional love. I am on a journey and the ride has never meant as much as it does today because I was lucky enough to be given a second chance to lift my sail. I am thriving living & loving all this world has to offer. I am never broke with the amount of love in my heart I have daily from him who gives it.
All I had to do was open my eyes to see beyond what I thought was my purpose in life but he has shown me I am important to and I deserve to be loved and cared about by him.
My life was changed on April 17th 2009 after losing custody of my girls for a 3-day hospital stay as my story is well-known now but in losing my life that day I found it since truly and it has been the greatest gift my savior and I share. My girls are not gone forever, my girls have a very clear picture of who I was as a mom. I did my job, probably to much so I now know as everyone is entitled to "me time" but I gave that up when I got married, had kids and later found out two have autism and despite living with it myself my entire life it was only after the girls were taken I was diagnosed @ 46 but I raised one adult child already now 27 but the world judges you this is the change I plan to make. My life was there's but in all that has happened it's been a good thing because like Job, God may take something away temporarily to get your attention for his purpose & eventually get the glory but he multiplies it 10 x over when he returns it back. I am satisfied with the work he has done with me and I may not be exactly where he wants me to be but I surely ain't where I used to be. Praise Jesus for that~!! In all this God took a aspie woman and transformed me into a wonderful person that I can even say now I love and fully accept because it's not "US" that has the problem it's the word who does not like "different" and that's just the way it is but like Temple Grandin I am somebody, someone I never knew I could even be but by the good graces of God I have now learned to love myself and treat my body as his precious temple as it should be treated. He won't disappoint, he doesn't leave me, he always forgives me, he always loves me despite my faults unlike the world. I have learned a lot through the constant teaching of Joyce Meyer & Joel Osteen two very gifted people who have the ability to share Gods word. It was in one of Joyce's teachings of "Taking care of yourself" a podcast I watched on my Ipad it was then it hit me when she said "You will get to a point of breaking down physically,mentally & emotionally if you don't take care of yourself" (because you were so busy of caring for others) and that is exactly what happened I needed some "me time" and so I am doing just that.
I am walking 3 miles a day, eating better, sleeping more and I feel a bunch better already.
I am keeping a thought in my head and replay it over and over to keep me focused.
"God, I know that today nothing can happen that you and I can't handle together."
In Galations 5-22 it say's :
But the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control against such things there is no law."
If we don't learn from his teachings then what good is it to even speak. I have learned so much from my heavenly father. I used to have a hard time with my mouth but self control has worked well when you really put it to use.
In Proverbs 17-22 he tells us "a joyful heart is good medicine, but a broken spirit dries up the bones." Let him come live in you and your peace will be everlasting.
And always remember Romans 8-31
What then shall we say to these things ? If God is for us, who can be against us ?
Remember as well God has a perfect plan for each and everyone, you just must accept him.
Romans 8-28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good. For those who are called according to his purpose.
As my youngest says who loves Justin Bieber
"NEVER SAY NEVER~!!"
Because with God all things are possible~!!!!!!!!!!!