Autistic mom loses custody of autistic girls in San Diego,Ca in 2009: December 2010

Thursday, December 9, 2010

More then frustrated.........

I wrote a e-mail to my attorney out of anger, frustration and pure despair on what to do anymore. I am so lonely and isolated from my contact again from my girls as this "keep away from Linda" is so cruel~!! I have never ever felt cruelty like this. Our world is filled with dark evil people who love to terrorize the good. It's 2:22 a.m. on 12-09-10 and I just can't sleep because I go into a emotional meltdown just thinking of my girls. I have not seen them again almost 2 months like I was this horrific mother who starved my girls and tried lighting them on fire as I am being treated like I have done something this "horrific" when in fact I went into the hospital for depression 3 day's and I have lived 18 mos. of this terrible nightmare. Please Lord let me wake up. I just pray daily,nightly and read books by Joyce Meyer "Why God Why" and "When God When" to help get me through. I just pray the good Lord keeps my girls safe from harm. I have lived my entire life being autistic and never once was it a issue until CPS comes in and makes them apart of my life and then my disability becomes a huge problem, it just shows the department of social services doesn't have much empathy of "special needs" people as I have been disguarded as a parent like a piece of trash~!! Oh well my girls are strong with what I instilled in their souls early on so I don't really have nothing to worry as they all do when time to answer to our creator. Pray for their souls!
You will be missed this holiday season my precious girls but never far from my mind. Shellbe turns 12 yrs. old on Sat as well, wish her a big birthday wish, PLEASE~!!
xoxoxoxoxoxxo momma