DISRIMINATION IS ILLEGAL~!!

DISRIMINATION IS ILLEGAL~!!
A VERY,VERY DEDICATED MOTHER~!!

Friday, January 13, 2012

MY TRUST WILL BE AS DANIEL IN THE LYONS DEN (DANIEL CH 6 VERSE 16-24)

NOTHING will ever or can ever take the focus off my LORD as he is worthy to be praised even in the down times~!! TRUST was Daniel's greatest achievement as it will be mine~!! If we keep focused on Jesus and what he can and will do, he is a rewarded of those who search closely & follow tightly.
I am NOTHING without him, and I am so glad to give him praise as he controls ALL THINGS between heaven and earth. People can say things that are lies and have no value and as in the bible the Lord laughs as he can cast them down when he wants to. I am so happy to have found the peace, joy, happiness, stability I have found in all my savior freely gives~!! Do not let your heart be troubled he says and I will give you comfort and he surely does. Seeing people through the eyes of love as Jesus would see is a whole nether way to live. I feel no condemnation in my heart and live this way is so peaceful. I am eating healthier then I ever have, I am walking 4 miles a day and it will show and I am on a special regimen of vitamins & minerals that have done so much for my body. I sleep well and am the best I have ever been in my life @ 49 years of age. God is the master and if you let him he will make a masterpiece out of you. Despite any iniquities I may have Jesus shed his blood for me, to give me the life he wanted and knew I could have. So in all things big and small Jesus is at work behind the scene you just must hold tight to the trust in your heart in him and all will be well. I pray I can be a influence on someones life who wants to make a change they never thought possible in themselves but
                  with God all things are made possible~!!
                                       

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

MY HELPLESS AUTISTIC DAUGHTER IS BEING KEPT FROM HER MOMMY AGAINST HER WILL~!!

 My daughter who is my youngest daughter now age 13 is being kept from her mother illegally because she was legally KIDNAPPED from her mother from social services in San Diego, Ca.
 My daughter who has Autism, mild cerebral palsy & classified as mildly mentally disadvantaged.
It is heartbreaking for ANYONE who has a real heart & soul to watch this video I shot 2 yrs. ago when she first went in luckily she was moved to somewhat of a better home. In supervised phone calls she is so sad, misses her family something awful as you can hear it. I did absolutely NOTHING to deserve such a sentence, neither did my girls. I have a documented e-mail from a county attorney who supervises all the attorney's stating "All my attorney's have agreed you have not been treated fairly" & "It does seem the county has it in for you." Then another attorney I hired on my own who has Aspergers herself said in a report "This is the county playing  KEEP AWAY from the mother." and
"This is now a ADA issue, due to the mother's disability." Because I am very high functioning Aspergers only diagnosed AFTER my girls were kidnapped by the county. I want my story to go public as they have just told my adult 27 yr. old daughter who two sisters can't be in her wedding 4-14-12 that she told them over 7 months ago but when my oldest asked "what do you have against my mom she can't be here with her sisters ?"  His reply was "Nothing physical but she's emotional."
This is just a game of control & money the government gets from federal funding~!!!

**UPDATE** 1-10-12
In court this morning I was denied another attorney I asked for it would of been my 8th but I told the commissioner why, and his response was "As I told you once before Ms. Souza I think you articulate & intelligent enough to act as your own attorney, see back in June."  (BUT GET THIS)
Social services is saying " Linda is severvely mentally ill. " so if this was truth so I cannot parent but they want me to act as my own attorney. TALK ABOUT BLATANT DISCRIMINATION~!!
I got it all documented so now I have contacted the media~!!!! 





                                           http://youtu.be/9K_Lv26vbhk  

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Learning through Gods beauty & grace how to take care of ME ~!!

Gods beauty is such a gift as I ponder and watch the sun hit the ocean you can almost hear a hissing sound as a reward for watching it set. These are my passion with my gift of photography I was blessed to be given by my awesome savior Jesus Christ. He gives freely to those who will accept his gift as I have found true unconditional love. I am on a journey and the ride has never meant as much as it does today because I was lucky enough to be given a second chance to lift my sail. I am thriving living & loving all this world has to offer. I am never broke with the amount of love in my heart I have daily from him who gives it. 
All I had to do was open my eyes to see beyond what I thought was my purpose in life but he has shown me I am important to and I deserve to be loved and cared about by him. 
My life was changed on April 17th 2009 after losing custody of my girls for a 3-day hospital stay as my story is well-known now but in losing my life that day I found it since truly and it has been the greatest gift my savior and I share. My girls are not gone forever, my girls have a very clear picture of who I was as a mom. I did my job, probably to much so I now know as everyone is entitled to "me time" but I gave that up when I got married, had kids and later found out two have autism and despite living with it myself my entire life it was only after the girls were taken I was diagnosed @ 46 but I raised one adult child already now 27 but the world judges you this is the change I plan to make. My life was there's but in all that has happened it's been a good thing because like Job, God may take something away temporarily to get your attention for his purpose & eventually get the glory but he multiplies it 10 x over when he returns it back. I am satisfied with the work he has done with me and I may not be exactly where he wants me to be but I surely ain't where I used to be. Praise Jesus for that~!! In all this God took a aspie woman and transformed me into a wonderful person that I can even say now I love and fully accept because it's not "US" that has the problem it's the word who does not like "different" and that's just the way it is but like Temple Grandin I am somebody, someone I never knew I could even be but by the good graces of God I have now learned to love myself and treat my body as his precious temple as it should be treated. He won't disappoint, he doesn't leave me, he always forgives me, he always loves me despite my faults unlike the world. I have learned a lot through the constant teaching of Joyce Meyer & Joel Osteen two very gifted people who have the ability to share Gods word. It was in one of Joyce's teachings of "Taking care of yourself" a podcast I watched on my Ipad it was then it hit me when she said "You will get to a point of breaking down physically,mentally & emotionally if you don't take care of yourself" (because you were so busy of caring for others) and that is exactly what happened I needed some "me time" and so I am doing just that. 
I am walking 3 miles a day, eating better, sleeping more and I feel a bunch better already. 
I am keeping a thought in my head and replay it over and over to keep me focused.


"God, I know that today nothing can happen that you and I can't handle together."

In Galations 5-22 it say's :
But the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control against such things there is no law."


If we don't learn from his teachings then what good is it to even speak. I have learned so much from my heavenly father. I used to have a hard time with my mouth but self control has worked well when you really put it to use.
In Proverbs 17-22 he tells us "a joyful heart is good medicine, but a broken spirit dries up the bones." Let him come live in you and your peace will be everlasting.

And always remember Romans 8-31
What then shall we say to these things ? If God is for us, who can be against us ?


Remember as well God has a perfect plan for each and everyone, you just must accept him.
Romans 8-28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good. For those who are called according to his purpose.

As my youngest says who loves Justin Bieber                                   
                 "NEVER SAY NEVER~!!"
Because with God all things are possible~!!!!!!!!!!!