A letter to my darling daughter, MONTANNA ARIANNA SOUZA

Well today is another day as in everyday. I am heartbroken to share that it has been almost 4 yrs. since my middle daughter has had "no contact" with her immediate family, her mother and two sisters. The case of CPS kidnapping my two younger girls at 10 & 12 are both now 17 & 19. I got my youngest back but the middle child whom has Aspergers as well was soooo brainwashed it is unbelievable this can be done to a young brain but let me assure you it can because I am now living this hellish nightmare of now almost 2 yrs. since their cases were closed. My precious daughter is so affected she believes I am the perpetrator. She did send me a recent message on facebook using someone elses account. She tore me down degrading me as a terrible mother and then explains why she is using her dead father's last name whom sexually abused her. She stated "I almost didn't get into college because of you as there was no record of me as Montanna Souza, so I was told I had to use his last name Epps." Look him up he is on the internet still to this day despite being dead he was a registered sex offender. 
                              
               My beautiful, lovely girl, Montanna Arianna Souza

See I gave the court in San Diego the stamped court document from Washington state court. I had legally changed both the girls names long before the CPS case ever happened. It was stamped with a seal from the court but the crooked system led her to believe this was not true another way to pit her against me. People understand even through a divorce or any other means there are two sides to tell the children lies or truth about one parent or another you're children then believe one of those sides,there young and vulnerable as there just children!
Also it doesn't help when there are family members just as wicked as the social workers who try and stray your child the wrong direction which in this case of mine has recently happened. A niece of mine Jennifer Gates who is a LVN a hospice nurse of all things, she to has issues with alcohol, sexual addictions and is reaping what she sowed as a parent now. She has the demented brain & no heart to influence my daughter in such a negative way to believe I am the no good for nothing mother. All the time when my girls were out of my life trapped by foster care. I was a mother to her own son who has a serious drug problem due to the way she raised him. He listened to me and had the desire to follow the Lord and wanted to be a asset to society. I gave him birthday money, bought him $50 shoes and loved him as if he were my own. Jennifer just beat the crap out of her own mother 59 yrs. old due to her own mother allowing abuse by boyfriends to her growing up but again all hear-say Jennifer is known to be a drama queen but in any fact you don't use such RAGE on a elderly person like that when you care for those kind of people as your job~!!! Montanna use your own knowledge, don't follow sheep headed for slaughter, go big & be strong!

 
                                                    My awesome graduate, Yeah~!!!  

  This daughter of mine, I am so proud of all your accomplishments and I pray that you find it in a small piece of your heart to give me some kind of credit for why & how you got where you are today. Sure you did all the work but Montanna it was I that raised you and molded you into who you are today. It's those small examples I taught you along the way of growing up. Feeding the homeless women at McDonalds when you wondered why, (To teach you to be more like Jesus.) Getting you and sister a happy meal then sitting you in front of the t.v. to watch a talk show of homeless children eating from a garbage can while you ate McDonalds (to teach you appreciation for your life.) Remember our trip back from Florida and stopping off in Oklahoma at an Indian store and at the age of 4, you wanted these colored stones and I said "No, put them back." and we left, 20 miles down the road you show me those very stones you stole from that store and Mom turned her van around and drove back to that store and made you apologize and return them. The store owner thanked me saying "We don't see many mother's like you." I was ALWAYS there for you my dear, you know this as truth~!!!

  Montanna, you have grown into an amazing 19 yr. old women and very smart indeed and if I never get credit for nothing it's still OK as I believe I did what every mother should do in raising a child, sacrifice there life for there own child and I did that~!! A word of wisdom dust off that bible with your name engraved on it I gave you for your 16th birthday and take the time to study it as God's message for our souls is deep and he will guide you to where he wants you to be, not where I want you to be or anybody else. Your so intelligent nothing can interfere with the knowledge you were blessed with unless you allow the enemy to bring you down. Be your OWN kind of beautiful. Be pure in your heart. Drive your desires all the way to the goal line. Learn, breathe, love, share & care with all the PASSION you can muster up from within. Sweetheart the enemy comes in to kill, steal & destroy don't let him get a foothold upon your life. Chase every dream & desire with an attitude of grace & peace from your heavenly father. His way's are where he wants you to go. You are a young women now and the roads ahead are rocky you must use great knowledge in which road YOU choose to go. I believe in you my love, you got this, so go after it~!!

                      Were always here for you & love you more then you know.
                                             Mom, Shellbe & Amber Souza                                                 
                                                                  

EVIL THAT RUN'S THROUGH GOVERNMENT POSTAL SITE BUT A GOD WITH SO MUCH MORE POWER

                                                                         

Our government is corrupted we all know this......but when "EX-FAMILY MEMBER'S" use it for there gain AGAINST my child caught up in this sick world, where foster care ends there is always a one to pray on a child, her sister and mother it is EVIL~!!! but GOD.....

That is what happened on March 22, 2016 my mother's final day to be with her family at her own funeral ~!! This was very sad to see~!! MICHAEL WOMACK of Bakersfield, Ca. used to be married to my sister Shari for 8 yrs. no children conceived they divorced but he had NO PARENTS HE CONSIDERED MINE TO BE PARENTS so he loved THEM deeply I BELIEVE but the enemy .....

This day the day my mother passed after years of calling them mom & dad and even at times calling them on mother's & father's day, birthday's & holiday's. I and my small children (at the time) new Mike & his wife TRACY WOMACK. I had what I assumed a great ex-brother in law as he seemed to only care for my family after the divorce so a bond was built and as years followed we built a tight bond, he was a brother to me and have many good memories I recall. I continued to allow my youngest Montanna & Shellbe to call him uncle Mike as years past bye. Mike's wife TRACY called me "friend" even had me in the grips of her belief of  "oh so loving I am a christian" blah blah blah....you are my friends. So being you all are aware after being so mistreated and abused by San Diego County, I fled to live out the remainder of our lives in Washington state with two other daughter's my oldest Amber 31 and my recovered from horrific abuse in foster care Shellbe now 17 but left Montanna 18 as she had headed to UCLA to go to college.(ONCE FOSTER CARE IS OVER.) A blessing again as you NEVER see the GOOD out of these situations. I would of never believed the next trick the enemy was to perform. 

 Yes in fact there own"MISGUIDED" daughter now 23 BRECKYN WOMACK is MICHAEL'S own daughter and she once use to block Montanna on facebook for not being good to me as BRECKYN once was taught to respect me and believe MONTANNA was being so abused NOT TO TRUST ME her own mother."Parental alienation syndrome" it's called it has been since Montanna was 16 when I last saw or embraced her due to "Parental alienation syndrome" Anyways knowing I had not seen Montanna in a few years they decided to play this out on the very day of my mother's funeral when Dad was laying a rose on her casket, he is 85 they were married 60 years no but MICHAEL WOMACK loves his parent's so they brought BRECKYN WOMACK & MONTANNA SOUZA to see (Montanna's grandma buried) but with evil in there thoughts they thought they were prepared to work for evil but God has his own plans. As my beautiful & wonderful mother was laid to rest, I vaguely remember embracing Montanna for a second saying "MY DEAR DAUGHTER" I am short of anything else as with autism my focus was already set and it was my mother whom received my attention. Call autism a blessing most the time. This wasn't all used for evil as GOD always prevails. The sadness that only could be viewed them needing a extra pall bearer and whom is urged for but MICHAEL WOMACK dressed in shorts & plad shirt it was a embarrassment that my father still talks about as he wasn't there for "Mom" as MICHAEL called her but the evil the serpent enlist and those that follow. This family will always be dear to me as I watched as everyone of there 3 hit mile stones it tears my heart into more pieces then the pieces it has taken to find a cure for AUTISM as I truly loved, honored & respected this family, the enemy steals,kills & destroys but GOD can restore, transform a heart from despair, disbelief and true wickedness MICHAEL runs a government postal office in PUNKIN CENTER in BAKERSFIELD, CA. Let' really seriously overwhelm him with letter's of FORGIVENESS as JESUS did unto us.

HATE MAIL: NO WAIT IF I DID THIS WHAT AM I SAYING.....SEND PRAYERS AND WELL WISHES AS I AM NOT A HIPPO CRATE. AS I REALLY DO SEND LOVE & COMPASSION FOR THE LOST, OVERWHELM THIS POST OFFICE WITH MAIL OF LOVE,COMPASSION & FORGIVENESS AS WE ARE THE BEACON OF LIGHT UNTO THIS WORLD THROUGH JESUS CHRIST MY SAVIOR~!!! MY OWN LETTER WILL ARRIVE. MY HEART ACHES FOR GOOD PEOPLE TRULY LOST IN THIS WORLD AS THE WOMACK FAMILY IS.

3107 TAFT HWY
BAKERSFIELD, CA 93313-9621

                                        

                  THE DAGGERS IN US ALL

                                                                   

Congressional Testimony: Linda Souza to Bill Windsor of Lawless America

I WAS SENT TO JAIL FOR 5 DAYS 4 THIS BLOG I CREATED TO SHOW THE WORLD WE LIVE IN~!!!!

                                                           
I wanted to share with the world now that BOTH my girls cases are closed my oldest now 18 was closed in April 2015 and lies were made up about my now 16 yr. old to run it out longer it closed May 19th 2015 but it totally screwed her out of summer services because we moved to Washington state. This was before I left San Diego, I was sent to jail wasn't in vain though as I was scared first when I went in as there were druggies, bank robber, double offenders for DUI some people that had done some serious crimes. I started telling my story and what kind of disability I had etc.... only because I wanted to communicate and try and help some and I did before you knew it I was the hottest chick in lock down because I was telling the druggies that they didn't need drugs as a way out all they needed was Jesus Christ there were 31 in my room with bunk-beds and 42 on the opposite side you could go over to if you wanted as the bathroom was our divider. Well a few took a liking to me but others became jealous because the attention was on me. God filled me with such power that I prayed for at night that two black ladies were tough and they didn't care for me so I kept my distance but others would come ask "Hey miss Linda, can I pray with you."as they noticed me reading the bible, so I did and it was awesome so many of them had ditched there kids for the dope, some were living with family but most CPS came and took. Now those are serious situation the kids need better care but in my book CPS is NEVER the answer because children are just re-abused & used all over sometimes worse as was my youngest Shellbe. We were forced out of bed at 6 a.m. for breakfast and to walk in a civil line to what was called the chow house. The food was sickening never did I eat nothing except fruit. I was told so much how they make wine to how they slip in drugs but my focus was always my girls but God had a plan to use me for his glory. I had my bible on my bed reading it before light's out at 10 p.m. and some girls would sit at the end of the bed and ask me who is this God you believe in and cares so much about you and then they would share there horror stories of how they started their lifestyle weather it was stealing, stripping, or giving up there beautiful kids just for the next fix. I was sad being I wanted my girls back so bad and had NEVER choose nothing over them. I just was AUTISTIC with some clinical depression and because I was raising TWO autistic girls and overwhelmed I broke down saying I didn't want to live to this provider who was working with my youngest so showing her my arm I cut on but my girls NEVER saw it or knew I was doing it I just needed to feel but she chose to call police and CPS was called and I begged them to call my family as I went into a psychiatric hospital for 3 day's then let go told your not a danger to yourself or anyone else your free to go. Then the fight was set in motion as I was asked by a CPS supervisor "So you think your gonna get your kids back." I said "Yes of course." She replied very nasty "Well see about that." getting back to jail the day's were long most girls would sleep all day, they did play Madea goes to jail which was funny. I was approached by this black girl earlier I was intimidated by she came up and said "Hey I like to write poems want to hear some I said sure she told me in one poem about her "husband" her husband was her choice of drug heroin and how she gave up her children for it so her mamma had to raise her kids, she said the last time she visited them her 8 year old begged her to stay and give up her #1 love heroin as she cried I did to and I prayed with her and told her what a wonderful poet she was and someday her stuff could get published. This hard, beaten down heart was still ALIVE inside her. She thanked me and even hugged me as I told her if she was to seek Jesus he could clear her mind from that drug and go back to her kids. Then on my final night there word got around I was to be released the next morning so this black grandma that despised me and even made fun of my disability and I looked at her when she did and said but Jesus still loves you. She came into the bathroom while I was brushing my teeth and laid herself on the counter sobbing like a baby and said "Mam I go to court tomorrow will you pray for me." and I said "Praise Jesus, sure I will." later that night I couldn't sleep and I wrote all the girls a long letter about accepting Jesus as their personal savior could save thier souls and release there demonds that had a hold upon them and it was my time to go but keep the faith. So I taped it on the bathroom mirror with bible versus and told them there life had a purpose. As 4 a.m. came it was time to leave jail and change into my regular clothes I felt sooooo much power it was like Daniel must of felt walking out of the Lyon's den. See God uses ALL situations for his good & glory and I prayed I made a difference in just (1) as that's called saving a life of guilt and shame and giving them hope for their future. Most of these women were so lost and broken but I know God had a purpose to use ME for there good. I knew I didn't belong there but God did because I was offered community service FIRST but denied it and said I am ready for jail because I prayed the night before and the Lord weighed heavy upon my heart that was what I was to do. My attorney's mouth hit the floor and said "Linda are you sure this is what you want to do." "I said yes God told me to do it. When you have faith as little as a mustard seed and "believe" anything is possible~!!

                                                               

NEVER EVER GIVE UP~!!! JESUS IS THERE.
                                                       

HAPPY ENDINGS-!!!!!

Well six years have passed and despite the wicked in our world I am blessed to be back with at least two of my girls after a long fight with a very, very corrupt wicked and broken system. San Diego county I was told by several attorneys was the WORST PLACE TO MOVE TO IN LOSING MY CHILDREN. It's a corrupt county and one of the largest of human trafficking!!! Also social workers, judges and foster parents like Gloria Hurtado whom still runs a childcare facility at her home in Escondido, Ca used so much fear and abuse to control my autistic child that hell will hath no fury on them all. We are going forth with filing a multi-million dollar lawsuit against SD county and EVERYONE INVOLVED!! When you kidnap loving children from a loving mother just because you don't like the way they communicate due to Aspergers and never offer them reunification it's all a crime and done with evil intentions.

GOING HOME, PRAISE JESUS-!!!!

I am moving to Washington state to be with my by TWO girls. I am getting my own apartment and my daughter will supervise my visits but my youngest is so excited in fact she has gone back to being my sweet and now safe child she always even being born premature. GOD say's if your patient good things come your way and it 's our turn I just know.
     Amber states what a delight she has been for her, she does her own Landry , folds both of  there's and brushes her teeth. She got Cindy her melatonin she takes for bed, she feeds the cats, dumps the trash then gets into bed.

Cindy told Amber I can't wait to meet this wonderful mother of yours who raise to wonderful & exceptional girls-!!!!
When Amber told me this it literally made me cry because all the proof I need is for my father in heaven who knows the TRUTH and to no man does it matter. My trial is at it's end stages and only the good comes from him above. I don't know why this was my trial but I will NOT QUESTION GOD ON HIS DECISION and appreciate what it is he has taught to me because I have learned almost SIX YEARS LATER BUT UNLIKE ROBIN WILLIAM'S (God bless his soul) I NEVER GAVE UP because my body is the temple of God. Praise your name.