I wanted to update & post that in April 2018 will make 9 years this blog has been on the internet & on the 17th of April 2018 will make 9 yrs. ago my two autistic girls whom are now women almost 19 & 20 were literally kidnapped from me by a very,very,very, corrupt CPS system. I was kept from my girls for long periods of time, including an entire year and a half for a falsified report written by a social worker. It all started by me going in on a 72 hour hold due to my depression, only later at 46 being diagnosed myself with Aspergers. They literally used my disability to keep me from my girls~!! I was never a danger to them, it was my own self who needed help but like veterans didn't get it but instead I was treated like a animal, thrown into a dirty cell going into a full blown anxiety attack, laying on the floor and gasping at the bottom of the door for air. I fell while in there hospital and instead of being helped up I heard a nurse tell another "Look what that stupid bitch went & did "laughing at me." I got myself up off the floor. After my 72 hours were over, I was thrown out the door without a follow up plan~!!! In the meantime my girls were taken to a disgusting holding place before finding them homes because they knew & planned all along I wasn't getting them back. My adult daughter flew down from Washington to take them & free my service dog from almost being adopted where she was dumped at the humane society. My parents had even offered to drive the 4 hours to pick them up but were refused. I had no idea this would turn into a nightmare this long. When me & my oldest Amber went to get the girls, the social worker nastily says "You think your getting your girls back." "I said of course, I didn't hurt my girls." She responded "Well, will see about that!" There the deal was sealed and I had no idea. I didn't get my girls or at least 1 back for 6 long years. I was forced to endure so much heartache & pain with their creative games, like telling me to show up for a visit and after the 35 minute drive with food I brought to feed them I was told they cancelled the visit. Or when I went on a visit and saw abuse on my youngest (more autistic) daughter of bruising, ridiculous long toenails & fingernails, skin rashes, smashed fingers & toes and heard the horror stories of her being abused in 5 different homes. I decided to document it and place it on the internet this very blog (if you go back far enough you can see them.)
 I was held in contempt of court for not removing the blog and sent to jail for an entire week. I was NEVER offered reunification despite my own efforts of going to parenting classes NOT COURT ORDERED, SPENDING TWO WEEKS IN A HALFWAY HOUSE TO BETTER UNDERSTAND MY DISABILITY, & LAST TAKING A WEEKEND SEMINAR CLASS AT SAN DIEGO STATE UNIVERSITY FOR PARENTING SPECIAL NEEDS CHILDREN~ALL PRESENTED TO THE COURT~!! Nothing pleased them because they had no intentions of returning my girls to me. My middle child was given the option to come to visit's or not and she opted out of coming, only after our last visit at 13 yrs. old. I was previously called by a social worker and told she had been sexually assaulted at a unsupervised pool party by CPS so when she came to visit alone without her little sister, I asked her what had happened she said nothing to me but the social worker spoke up and said "Ask her another question about that and this visit is over." That was my last visit with my daughter who will be 21 in April 2-days after this mess started but do you know what Stockholm Syndrome is ? It is TRUE BRAINWASHING~!!  I have had no contact with her in 8 yrs. She got her foster care scholarship and went onto UCLA leaving her sister's and I in the dust completely~!!! I don't blame her, as she was just a child when kidnapped but it does break all of our hearts. Now my youngest came back to my adult daughter at 16 and Amber got guardianship for a year she raised her on her own and despite the San Diego welfare making her get certified as a foster mom in this state of Washington which she did, they said they would pay her, well they didn't my daughter raised her for a year on her own dime~!!! The good news is I am now up here in Washington 3 yrs. now with my oldest Amber & my youngest Shellbe whom was kidnapped. Montanna resides at UCLA. Shellbe & I were diagnosed with P.T.S.D. and have been in therapy the last year & a half now still trying to recover. This ALMOST costed me my life by suicide but God had other plans. It has in fact taken it's toll on my physical health. Shellbe still suffers great separation anxiety but she was recently baptized and we know we have a powerful, loving, gracious & giving God. We are together, were happy and tighter then ever before thanks to Jesus. Amber was married last September to a wonderful guy Rick Stilwell and there always there for Shellbe & I, just as much as my glorious heavenly father. So my point~If you will just believe in him ANYTHING is possible~!! NEVER, EVER GIVE UP OR IN~!!!!  Thanks for reading & God bless you.